I’m m35 and my wife f36 have been married 14 years. We went out for drinks for my birthday in July. We always wanted to try a threesome and tonight was the night. We met a college guy thats we hit it off with and we went to our place. We were pretty drunk. I sat down to watch them start and played with myself. The guy was about 5’5 or so. So we were surprised when she pulled him out how endowed he was and my heart dropped. I watched her take it for a while she clearly was enjoying it. We’ve had a great marriage.

Respectful and everything. I guess the thing that’s killing me is that she came with penetration with him easily and she almost never does with me. She grabbed my hand while she was getting fucked and said “somethings gonna happen” then she orgasmed. After I came I guess post-nut clarity kicked in and I was full of regret. She even tasted his cum after I told her beforehand that was a no no. After he left she was extra lovey dovey with me like she knew.

Since July she has asked two seperate times to meet up again. Also since July we’ve only had sex a handful of times and it’s not the same. I’m really depressed